When tomorrow starts without me...
When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not here to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand.
And said my place was ready
in heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
for all life, I'd always thought
I didn't want to die;
I had so much to live for
and so much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
I thought, for just awhile,
I'd say good bye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized
that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories
would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
that I'd miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity
and all I've promised you".
Today for life on earth is past
but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
And since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful,
so trusting, so true.
Though there were times you did some
things, you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand
and share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.
My Toots...
Toots,
You captured my heart from the first day we met. I never met a man who made me laugh the way you did. You changed me forever....you ALWAYS made me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. I loved that you always held my hand, pinched my butt, kissed my forehead and never hesitated to show your love for me.
You had a heart bigger than the sky. You loved your family first before anything. You made me proud to be your wife. You lived your life to the fullest and lived more in your 44 years than most people live in a lifetime. I was blessed that you picked me to be your wife. We have been thru so much but there was never a time that I didn't know that you adored me and I adored you.
You never cared about having a trident, world records, awards, medals etc. you cared about being the best father to your children and the best husband to me. You knew what was important in life...that was family. You always made my heart go "pitter patt" even after 24 years together. We had good times, huh Toots?
I miss you more than words can say. My heart will never recover...I have lost the love of my life and my best friend. I do know that you are finally pain free and at peace. I do know that you are among the angels and probably giving God skydiving lessons. I know that you are only a heart beat away and that you are watching over me, Romie and Hailey.
I hope I will make you proud, Toots. I am going to celebrate the time we had together by living my life without you with making a difference in others lives. I know you will guide me daily. I love you...thank you for sharing you with me and changing my heart forever.
Remember to meet me at the gates because I am really bad with directions...
Your wife,
Belinda aka Toots
